my confession

terus terang aku katakan, aku langsung tidak study semasa cuti Raya. Homework, dibiarkan sahaja di dalam beg. Apabila telah tibanya masa untuk sekolah, aku masih MEMBIARKAN saja kerja kerja itu di dalam beg. Dan, pabila tibanya di kelas, ku BERSANDIWARA di hadapan mereka. Hanya seorang saja yang mengetahui perkara yang sebenarnya. Mengetahui PERANGAI sebenarku dan memahami PERASAAN ku. Seorang teman yang bukan 'PLASTIK', tapi merupakan seorang teman yang 'PRIHATIN'. Memberi sokongan dan semangat, adalah rutin harian KAMI berdua.

Secara jujurnya, mereka tidak tahu erti berdiri dengan sendiri. Sentiasa mengharapkan orang lain. Menanya diriku ibarat aku umpama sebuah buku yang mempunyai pelbagai maklumat dan infomasi kepada mereka. Membuatkan aku menjadi tempat luahan perasaan mereka. 

Namun, pernahkah mereka mengambil berat terhadap perasaanku ini? Aku ni pon manusia jugak. Ada hati dan perasaan. Apabila aku tidak hadir disekolah, pernahkah mereka memberitahu perkara atau maklumat penting yang disampaikan oleh pihak sekolah ? Langsung tidak.

Ramai orang menyangka yang mereka telah memberitahu hal hal yang penting kepada aku apabila aku tidak hadir. Nak katakan mereka tiada nombor telifon aku, itu bohong berlaka.

inilah pengakuanku yang pertama. Rasa sakit hati yang amat mendalam terhadap mereka yang 'PLASTIK' dihadapanku. Baru aku sedar, temanku yang sebenar sentiasa disisiku. Walaupon kami sangat 'kontra' tapi kami tetap memahami apa yang ada di dalam diri kami.

english when writing is so skema!

Isnin, 14 september

hari itu merupakan hari yang agak memenatkan. During recess, sebuk meminta sijil KoKu. ni sume gare gare sekumpulan budak laki yg nak mohon ke MTD. b'coz of this, I pergi mintak sijil tu sowang2..the girls still donno yet, but after i received it they asking me lot of question!

well this is a fasting month right and pupil should went home early. But things aren't the same here. The form 3 student had to go extra class just to take exam trial Mathematics paper 2 from Kelantan. Luckily, the extra class just for math only and we do it once a week. Who wants to spen their time in school all day long?

The application to MRSM is a 'hot' news among MRSM fans. All of us already prepares the document require to take the pin no eventhough the opening date is a week after raya. Semangat la katakan hahahaha.


Tuesday, 15 september

yesterday it just the simple-old-days. So bored. Nothing to do. Every classes doing the state trial exam all day long. I really need a break. Syukur sesangat sangat when cikgu geografi tak masuk kelas ! Like I said, I need a break. Suddenly, the spirit of studying disappear. I wonder around the class and the next thing i do is chatting with the boys.

is quite enjoyable when we talk to our friends. it release the tention in our mind. Tapi, yesterday aq jadi lagi tension! Can u imagine a group of boys suddenly force u to tell who is the person that u like? Memang segan nak gitau tapi why should I? he is not studying here, he study at another school and most of my friends don't know him.

first of all i gave them the discription of that boy ; he is tall and white, wears blue shirt ( a prefect ) and a songkok, sometimes wears a spectacles. Most importantly, he is kind and ....

then, they ask me what is his first letter of his name. well, this part is strictly confidential to show on this blog. Hontouni gomennasai!

it's hard for them to know so they bring Syafiq and Kamarul along. With these two help them, they know who is that boy. Kamarul said that the boy had asking him a question about math during our visit to his school. Syafiq told them that I had told him that the boy is so kind! Both of them know his name.


well, that it for today. I want to take a nape coz tonight kene gi kiamullai. today story is not so interesthing so i will not post it hear. One more thing, tomorrow I skip school! when to Bangi to pick up my sis in UKM. But the next day, had to go to school. Lots of school starts their holiday this friday but why my school still school on that day?

chocolate'..........(late)

such a hot day..damn its so hot..

mase kat sekolah tadi kene jumpe our dear principle..sume ni pasal trial pmr..first2 dengar je la beliau berucap...lame lame, die tengok setiap keputusan pelajar pelajar harapan ni..

the first person that she called its me..she asked why my math got B..well, i smiled and said "cuai cikgu hehehe"..then she asked about my P.I, this time i took my breath and said "saye tak bace and tak ingat cikgu" bagusnye ayat aku ni yer..

Yang bagusnye pengetua lagik menaikan semangat aq adelah..she a good principle..no matter what happen, she always gives advice at student, especially the PMR and SPM students..Syukur alhamdulillah dapat pengetua cam die ni!

awaken from slumber

huh, what a sleepy days ~

sejak kebelakangan ni aku selalu ngantuk kat kelas terutamanye waktu pagi..tah nape aku ngantuk giler..biler malam jer mata terbeliak luas..biler pikir pikir balik, i'm a nocternerl or what ?

no spirit at school...not at all..in my mind "sleeping~sleeping~SLEEPING !"...thanks god cause there are lot's of work to do today..atleast i can do some work reather then sleeping until the sun is up..

my essay, gosh still not finished yet !..biler cikgu suruh wat soklan trial MRSM Geografi..wat laju laju sampai tak sempat nak bace ape soalan die..siap jer wat bende tu terus wat essay..i'm such a 'good' student right...

talkative, one of my sweetest and annoying personalities...no such a talkative person right now..what i do is just sitting in the chair doing work or just play dead in the stage filled with actor and actress..what a sad play :(  ; the main character of the play had died shockingly without even noticed by the other characters

hmm, so that is why  there's a 'young-pure-blood vampire' in the play, and that young vampire is the dead-main character of the play...wahahahahaha

me, a vampire?

the sleepy-headed little girl finally awakes from her deep slumber ;)

today, 7th September 2009...PMR is 7th October 2009
wow, a month away before the biggest mind-headache war!

what a NIGHTMARE !

today receive a lot of borang from school..well not so many at all..It just a borang untuk ke SBP, borang kursus selepas PMR kat Kolej Komuniti (KK) and borang lawatan ke Shah Alam..i just submit my name in the field trip to Shah Alam but not in the borang kursus kat KK..kursus yang ditawarkan oleh KK tu sangat tak menarik minat si budak sengal ni..well, if there is a language course, i sure will submit my name in it since i'm addicted to many kind of languages especially korean, japanese, frence and germany..( facts : people who is fluent/good in other languages used his left brain a lot !)

When the principle told us that PMR is just 1 month away, i felt like i would like it to start early (start early, ends early)..But when she said about the PMR trial exam result, I shockingly knew that there are 57 pupil among 157 PMR candidates that passed that exam..Istighfar banyak banyak..i ask my friends "mana perginye 100 tu"..( what a stupid question)

right now, no more laughing at class (well just a little is accepteble), takut ilmu hilang biler gelak banyak2 nanti leh lupe..dalam hadis pon ade cakap gelak banyak banyak boleh hilang ilmu..Pada bulan yang penuh dengan kerahmatan dan keberkatan ni marilah kita mengawal diri daripade tergelak2 dan yang penting sekali mengumpat, nanti sia sia jer puase kita.

p/s : selesai menulis borang ker SBP, sekarang ni tengah tunggu taklimat jer lagi hehehe

Facebooking, is fun~!

men facebook memang best..tah nape tetibe i'm stuck with facebook..maybe because of the silly quizes and farmville..

sebelum ni aq men la barn buddy, best mmg la best sbb kte leh curi2 and merosakkan tanaman owang len..tapi sekarang xdpt nak men game tu sbb laptop ayah aq tak de Adobe ape tah tu..so, aq men la farmville..eventhough game tu tak leh nak mencuri, game ni tetap best!

this is my farm!

resting area...look, it have pond!

hmm, tinggal kambing jer

came home for a visit O.o !

so good to be home~!
what the hell i'm talking about?..ignore it, onegaishimasu!

minggu cuti telah pon berakhir tapi aq masih lagi mau cuti..sepanjang 3 ari kat sekolah aq rase cam nak mati jer..tido punye la lambat ; purata tido pade jam 1.30 pagi ;0..patut la kat sekolah nak tido je keje..ari ni aq hampir tertido mase science..tahan punye la tahan, lepas cikgu abis bingcang aq terus tido..bagus nyer budak dah la duk kat barisan depan, ade hati nak membute lak sampai habis mase rehat..

keputusan trial exam finally out !..Just get 5A and 3B but its okay, at least i learnt my lesson for being careless in math and tak bace buku agame langsung..last2, subjek yg selalu dapat A, jadik B..padan muke ko, sape suruh bajet x prepare for agame xp!

kedudukan dalam kelas : no 6
wah happy nyer aq, terlepas daripade genggaman nombor berbelas belas! but someone dissatisfied with it..

Siti bagitau aq yang dak minah ni tak puas ati aq nyer science A sebab science aq sepatutnye B..actually, aq peduli hapak kat minah tu, aq lagi menyumpah die ade la..si minah yang tak tau malu desak owang kasi jawapan time prekse science until i felt like hell..she should be thankfull at me coz I (unwillingly) helped her during that exam..

yg wat aq lagi bengang apabile die cakap yang die tu lagi pandai daripade budak yang sepatutnye dapat 4A tu..aq tau sape owang yg die maksudkan tu ; aku...
kalo boleh mmg aq nak balas macam ni ;

kalo ko pandai sangat kenape ko tanye jawapan kat aq and kalo betul la ko ni lagi pandai drpde aq asal science ko
leh dapat C?"

but, that word never came out from my mouth because i'm not a heartless person, like her..

lagipon sekarang kan tengah bulan pose, so elok kite sabar daripade tambah dose lagi, betul tak? sekarang ni die tak puas hati ker aq malas nak layan dah..aq memang dah masak dah dengan perangai die ni..